Past. Present. Future.

Sometimes you look back at your life and think... "What was I thinking?" I do this a lot. This is the wrong question though, because what I knew then and now should not be compared so closely. I am not the same person I was (and that's a good thing) but why am I not the same person? Because of my past and what I went through. I was thinking differently then, my reasoning was flawed and has shifted a little bit every sting of pain, every tinge of miscomfort, and every war I lost at the hands of The Lord. I am different. If I wasn't I would look back with bitterness and regret, instead the times past by were all lessons learned. Those were the moments leading up to my present. If that's the case, then my present is the moment that inevitably leads to my future. Take a deep breath and let reality sink in and all the possibilities scatter across your minds eyes. But there's holes and glitches all around... Look closely and there's strings attached to long "forgotten" memories, and keepsakes. Love takes time to build and a lifetime to discover yet we throw it as if it's belonging to others. These strings cause our memorie's pages to rip and tear at the new joys unfolding... Look even closer and there's hooks that can "easily" be released but it seems to require careful precision from the pages long gone. Venture back to the start of the string and you'll find that this is where it all begin and likewise ends. One swift loop and the hold is no more; freeing your present which gives victory to your future. What were you thinking? Of the present and the day long gone rather than the unfolding of the future in the here and now.