All That's Left:

Have you ever found yourself closed off not just from others but from yourself?
In your attempt to shield your heart from all the hurt from others, you somehow lose who you are.
When all is said and done out of hurt and anger, you don't know what you really feel anymore.
The tides have rolled in and out before, but it seems like a tsunami has swept these shores.
The water still remains. You are stuck on the beach.
You feel you are drowning, but can't seem to save yourself no matter how hard you try.
You want to feel the sun shinning on your face again, but instead you're gasping for air.
Many dive down in an attempt to rescue, but it's to no avail.
"Save yourself," is the reply of your heart.
Words hurt the most. Actions are always questioned now.
Closeness is scary and love seems fake.
Trust is distant. Kindness is lost.
Future seems past. Past seems present.
When the world seemed different, but proves same.
When life fakes a smile, and dreams last forever.

All that's left is you.... Just me.

Can I find myself again in you?
When I allow my walls to fall, can you guard these broken pieces?
Will you go deeper than the feelings, and into the depths of truth?
Once the waters crash in and my air finally runs out...
Until I lose my grip from the beach I'm drowning on...
When all that's left of me is a frail body needing to be rescued...
Will you still come?
Will your actions prove false, the words you utter?
Will I see fear and sense truth fall away the closer I get?
Can I trust you? Can I find kindness in your arms?
Will you remind me of my future and help me live my present by walking away from my past?
Can you prove to me that even if this world won't change you remain the same?
Will you show me that not everything is fake, but help my dreams to end and reality begin?

All that's left is me... Just you.

"You came to my rescue, Lord, and saved my life." Lamentations 3:58